It is no secret I love fall. I love when the leaves begin to change, I love the chilly mornings, wearing hoodies, staying inside and doing crafts and drinking warm beverages with the girls, making leaf piles, decorating and baking... oh, and HALLOWEEN. Don't get me wrong, I love summer too. I love swimming and being in the sun and playing with the kids but it comes with the struggle of dressing for the appropriate weather and battling my anxiety.
I still have a constant mental battle going on because I don't have the body that I want yet or constantly applying sunscreen because I don't want to burn or tan because I had a run in with a pre-cancerous mole when I was young. Summer always comes with more thinking than necessary for me. Planning my outfits ahead and then changing the outfits 14X because I don't like how a shirt fits around my belly or never wearing shorts because I hate my thighs. I usually just wear loose clothes and leggings because it is the most comfortable.
People think, well then why don't you work out and eat right so you can fix your image problem. They think it is so easy, but when you also have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) it is quite difficult. Basically, PCOS makes it so your estrogen and your progesterone levels are out of wack, it also messes with your insulin levels and makes it easier to gain weight and harder to lose it. After seeing the doctor and getting things set on the right track, this are getting better. I have continuously been working out and eating right (for the most part) since April so I will be more comfortable with my body eventually.
Not saying I hate summer because I am unhappy with my body, it just makes is a little more difficult for me because I don't like showing more than I have to with my body.
Anyways, I love fall because I don't have to worry about dressing for warmer weather.
Oh, we're going to go to the store? Great! Let me grab my hoodie.
Oh, we going to rake some leaves to make a leaf pile? Okay, lets grab a jacket and a hat. Good to go. Summer for me is difficult because living in the day and age where everything goes online and people are so judgmental, it's hard. I always see posts and memes about people making fun of someone for how they look, or what they wear and how over weight or unhealthy they are. It makes it worse for any person because they constantly feel like they need to compete with each other or put each other down.
People always joke or poke fun about me "slowing my roll" when I talk about fall or Halloween because they don't like the snow/ cold. Well in this area, it doesn't snow until January anymore. I can't remember the last Christmas when we actually had some snow on the ground. I like fall because it IS cooler, I simply do not mind because you don't have to sweat and feel uncomfortable (no boob sweat!), you get to enjoy the smell of the candles burning, the crisp fall air, cozy blankets, crunchy leaves, long walks enjoying the view, oh and lets not forget about PUMPKIN FLAVORED EVERYTHING! (The bugs and bees also disappear ;) )
Fall is also the season that leads to every holiday! Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. Back to Back. It is like every Sunday, you get to sit on the couch with your family, watching football or a good movie, while eating popcorn and driving hot coco and tea.
I don't want time to go any faster than it already does, I just wish it was cooler and fall all year round because it is the best! ;) Summer would not be as bad in this area if it wasn't 95% rain and then 5% sunny/ cloudy days.
Just a main reason why I love fall and some facts about myself. No biggy.
Have a blessed day!
